I know when i am leaving college
When I am no longer checking my attendance
When I am no longer worrying about Darpan or Inbloom and a theme
When I am not thinking about a logo
When I am not staying up doing an assignment
When I don’t need to plan my outfit for the next day
When I don’t need to worry about my hair
When I don’t need to fix some part of my laptop, so it works in class
When I don’t need to burn a disc with some movie for a teacher
When I don’t need to worry that I have enough money, to buy stuff
When I don’t need to charge my phone often
When I don’t need to find a way to make the college logo look right in a poster or design

When I can listen to all the music I want
When I can see movies, peacefully
When I can delete notes and burn books! (I am not going to do that though, its only an idea right now)
When I can start making my portfolio
When I can see my photos and smile that I can remember life in college nicely
When I can see my assignments from first year and laugh how weird they were!
When I can see my internship report and laugh at myself, about how it helped me!
When I can see photos with my friends, and recall all these pleasant emotions!
When I can see my Darpan 08 photos and go gaga on how amazing they are!
When I can see InBloom 09 photos and go like that is mine! Yay and all the effort paid off!
When I can see Darpan 09 and say wow those are my designs and my photos!
When I can see InBloom 2010 and say thats my idea! Those are my designs, a part of me is in them!

When I can read and write this post, and thank all those people who have helped me through all these three years in Christ College!
I thank my class, everyone I am close to, who have eaten my food, who have criticized me when I designed something crappy, when I have done something nice, when I have cried to be there, who I have done my CIA’s with all the groups! I know I am lazy, and those groups that I have fought with, I tend to get closer to people I have fought with its a weird thing with me! For all those people who have stayed back with me in college for Inbloom or Darpan or a CIA, thank you all Or after hours celebrating my birthday and making my day special Love you all <3

Things happen for a reason, call it fate or destiny everything has a purpose. So this post is about how I am feeling nostalgic and stuff, about 30 days left in college, some things have happened which are simply amazing!

First thing that changed me, was ordering my cam, originally I wanted a sony h9! Thank God Uttam suggested this camera! Taking the certificate course was prolly the best thing I did, I made soooooo many friends thanks to it. Oh and  yeah, the next thing was clicking for college during Darpan 2008, I had sooooo much fun. Designing for Inbloom 08 was nice and it opened my eyes to all that designing and all that creativity! It was a real nice experience. Designing for Backstage Passes, was also damn amazing, but it was only an eye opener. I am still laughing at myself, when I took part in Darpan in 1st yr, that was such a shitty design! I laugh at myself every time I see it My so called Pratham, amazing magazine thank you Christ Uni

Well 2009 is still surreal, cause Darpan was amazing, designing for it was sooooo damn relaxed, photos were not as good as the previous years, i guess wasnt in a mood to do it, felt more like a burden than a hobby! Inbloom wow! I loved every bit of it, designing for it clicking photos, amazing experience! Made soooooo many more friends, had loads of fun, the photos have come out sooooo damn well, I am damn happy! I am going to add photos here In a separate post.

This year has been the most remarkable year! Successful events, winning first place for the first time, being in final year, getting an imac! Wow this year has truly been amazing!

So the year started of with Inbloom 09, which went of really well minus my cam though.

Then came Silhouette! It was the best thing that happened in 2nd yr in our dept i swear! I owe it all to my class and my classmates!

Flunking and then passing after a reval something that i still feel is a dream, thought of having flunked was scary! But then i cleared it with a nice 1st class, thank God!

Internship was relaxed and i had lots of fun

Darpan! was THE BEST that happened this year! Winning 1st prize in photography, and 3rd in graphic designing that itself is hard to believe! Got into cul team soon after that! Pondi got cancelled due to Swine flu

Birthday Turning 20 wow still cant get a grip

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After all that i have been thru the past month or so, i should be eternally happy, but its not, happiness lasts only for a little while, that week, and if not celebrated for at the right time, its not going to go on. I haven’t seen some people, i am close to, its odd, its something I am not used to.

I want to remain happy, cheerful, excited, but i cant, too much work, too less time. Too many problems solvable but unsolved.

Too too too less time, to breath.

Is art for me I am bad with my 2 hands so graphic design has my pallete/swatches, my brushes, my canvas the layers and then whatever i add to it to make it my own

I’m back into my analyzing mood, i want to know what life is. what defines life? What will happen if i ask this question? What can i expect from myself, by doing something like this.

I believe right now that, life is something that defines a person, a path on which a person travels, and keeps on travelling till death, or even after that. I have certain goals, certain features, certain things that define me, does this define my life as well? Is my life, designed, defined by what i do or what i am?

A tragedy, a romantic comedy, an action packed adventurous film, is our life something like that? Are we seeing a distorted reflection of ourselves in movies? We all have our ups and downs, is our life similar to that of a movie? Does our life have scenes? Like a setting, and lighting? Antagonists, Protagonists and Supporting Characters, i am making the former 3 as nouns, thus capitalized. So is there a character like the joker, one who is there only to trouble us? Or a glass slipper, which will change my future? Is life like a contrast to a fairytale?

Does one’s life consist of people as in subjects, things as in objects, a verb or an action, and a preposition a setting? Such as Deepa’s pen is lying on the table beside her. A Subject me in this case, my pen which is on the table. Can life be defined with ‘a’ subject, object, verb and preposition? In one’s life there will be several subjects, objects, verbs and prepositions, defining one’s life can be done after one’s life is loved to the fullest till the last second he or she is on this earth in a biological form, psychologically, we continue to stay, we can never die psychologically, we are parts of others’ life and they are a part of us.

Life goes on never stops, biologically maybe, heart stops beating, blood stops flowing.

Life goes on psychologically forever. It cannot be defined.

A movie, a song, a smile, a hug, people change your life. The twilight series affected me at a different level all together. reading the books, watching to movie, and listening to the music from the movie, all of it changed me, each artist each song, has a meaning to it, and i did not know most of the bands, who had made songs for the movie, did not know paramore nor O.A.R, very different music but i am enjoying those bands a lot. I had heard a few songs of muse did not like them much but know i love them a lot. and Mutemath, i had nvr heard of them, but i really like them. If any of you see the most played tracks in my itunes library, you would be shocked for sure, I am practically addicted to the movie, every aspect of it. The books, made me understand what life is, it might be weird to understand that, a vampire made me understand this.

The characters, make me understand things i learnt in my psychology classes as well, the different personality types, and stuff.

Bella’s lullaby is the best thing! i love it totally!

Something comes into your life, it stays and changes you, music, movies, books, humans, mortals and immortals as well, i totally adore the twilight series, and im waiting anxiously for the second movie, its very different compared to the 1st but i totally love it, so just want to see it badly! Deepti and me are going to see this together, it is going to be fun i know it

Cheers to Edward and Bella Cullen, and the whole Cullen household.

Thank you Stephanie Meyer, for changing my life, i have never been so happy and cheerful and bubbly since ages, you helped me out of all my bad times. Thank you

Funny post after a long while!. The following are some of my nicknames, please add more, comment on this post to increase the list-

1. Deeps
2. Nikki
3. Deep
4. Deepali
5. Deepu
6. De De
7. D
8. Panda
9. Deepshika
10. Peepa
11. Dep
12. Deepa Chan
13. DC
14. Dicha
15. Danda
16. Danda Deepa
17. Nick
18. Tauki
19. Dapoetess2210
20. Dap
21. DP
22. Crazy Freak Show,
23. Moon Quake
24. Deepakshi

These are all that i have found add on add on

1. I like getting drenched in the rain, i feel happy.

2. I can listen to any kind of music, but it depends on my mood.

3. I do not want to be sad so I am giving up on some people not naming them, it has to happen for my good.

4. Known devils are better than unknown angels.

5. I have not given permission for random people to call me Deeps or Deepa Chan. 

6. I do not like it when friends lie.

7. I have learnt the hard way that I should not expect anything from anyone, even family.

8. There is a difference between close friends, and friends.

9. People who stand the test of time only can be called true friends.

10. I have to eat more healthy food.

So this is me, dont care if you find any of this harsh, reality check, this is my life Im going to live it my way!

Tuesday was the last day i ate out, wednesday i was fine, thursday morn i was fine, but thirsday night i felt really tired and i had a bad headache! When mum checked my temperature i had about 101 degrees, so i had a crocin, the fever had gone but in the morning again i had fever so in the evening at around 5 dad and me went to Indra Nursing Home and met the doctor, he gave some antibiotics for the fever and antacid as well.

Saturday i was perfectly fine, i ate breakfast, lunch and dinner, i woke up on Sunday morn and did not feel well at all, i felt drained completely, so daddy called Dr Murthy Uncle up, and he examined me and said i dont have a viral infection, i have a bad stomach infection, so i was admitted. I stayed there till abt 8 in the evening.

I had to take intravenous medicine, aka drips lots of meds were put in 4 bottles to be exact and lots of injections! Had lots of coconut juice, and apples

I am resting from everything for a while, just relaxing and trying to fix myself as soon as i can! I have an internship to start still!